Turning 25

I don't even know where to start. Too many things happened lately.

I turned to 25 last month.

sweet surprise #turning25

I faced (probably) the toughest year of my life.

Mencapai 25 yang digadang-gadang banyak orang harus disambut dengan sedemikian rupa justru tidak berlaku untuk saya. Entah kenapa saya sedikit tidak semangat menyambut pergantian tahun di tahun ini. Tidak mengharapkan dapat ucapan, kado, bahkan kehadiran. Bahkan pengen seharian quality time sama kasur di 24 April kemaren. Bukan, bukannya tidak bersyukur, but those birthday-routines didn't excited me anymore. I don't know why. It just flat.

2016-2017 is a year filled with college-drama. No, no, it's not about romance story between senior-junior or dosen-mahasiswi (*loh?). I'm just... too tired with this reality.

Tidak pernah terbayangkan sebelumnya akan mengambil major Engineering untuk melanjutkan studi saya. Diplomanya kimia, S1-nya teknik, ibarat rambut mungkin otak saya butuh di smoothing beberapa bulan belakangan ini. Deal dengan tugas-tugas yang tak kunjung usai, jam kuliah dari jam 7 pagi - 9 malam. Literally, 7 pagi guys no deal at all dan bener-bener teng go jam 9 malam ga pake dicepet-cepetin. Dan fyuhh.. di sabtu malam :') Di saat gadis-gadis lain diluar sana sedang mempersiapkan diri untuk dijemput pangeran berkuda putih, saya sudah lupa bahkan rupa pangeran itu seperti apa, wekekek :p

But at those hectic time, I had a favorite song titled 'Dalam-Mu' from Symphony Worship which the lyric taken from Psalm 23. You guys must listen to this song:

"The Lord is my Shepherd, i shall not fear

guide me in the right path, for the honor of His name

eventhough i walk through the darkest valley..

I will not be afraid"

NYESSS..

Diingetin lagi kalo sekelam apapun 'lembah' yang saya hadapi saat ini, respon yang harus saya berikan ya harus tetap berjalan, tanpa ngeluh, tanpa khawatir, tanpa gentar, tanpa takut, karena saya tahu siapa Gembala yang berjalan didepan saya.

So, entering 25, I do learn lots of things. A LOT.

1. In the quietness of His love, I found my strength.

All we need is to rest in Him, put away all the fear, the doubt, the worry and rest in Him knowing He is God. Then the small gentle voice will speak in your heart. You just have to be quiet, and listen.

2. ALL things work together for good.

Though we might not understand what God is doing, please know that He is a builder, not a crusher. What He is doing is to make something new, better and cooler than what we can imagine.

3. Align with God is never easy, but that is what life about.

This is my wish entering 25. For my heart aligns with God's heart. For my life aligns with what He wants. And alignment is never easy. It caused pain and hurt sometimes. But if it what really matter, then why need to run away.

4. Hold on to God, not to people.

Those things make me stand alone. I was forced to meet and work with new people I've rarely talk with. My comfort zone was 'taken' from me. My inner circle of friends. I was 'forced' to learn that God is my only source of strength.

5. I am loved.

And that's enough to give me courage to carry on and take a step, one a time. Not only by God, but from people surround me.

Much of love,

si gadis 25 tahun!